There goes my diet...

today is my bro's bday and we had a real big feast...have a look at the pic below...somemore I was trying to eat less as I've been doing the past 2 days but the food today was too tempting...there were:
4 sting-rays,
kailan in oyster sauce,
about 80 sticks of satay,
har gao soup,
12 bbq chicken wings.
And I had one stingray to myself!!!
Anyway just wanted to say that I had a good time having a meal with my family. My bro's gf joined us too. She's a really nice gal and I hope things work out cos I really dont think my bro can find someone as patient and understanding. My relationship with my bro has been ambivalent for as long as I can remember. Some of you I'm closer to would know that my bro and I are like two extremes on a continuum and the only similarity I see sometimes is the way we look. There was a very long period of time we didnt even speak to each other and sadly I have to admit, he was one of the people (in fact the only) that I had actually felt hatred towards. I can't say that it has all gone away but from my growth in CSS, it has helped lessen this somewhat though recently again I had been having similar feelings. I really hope that we will remain close and I pray that one day he will wake up and be more sensible. Till then all I can do to hope (I no longer pray about it). Sometimes I think its partially my fault that he has turned out this way cos having to live in an elder sibling's shadow can do two things: (1) you rise up to the challenge or at least attempt to do so, or, (2) you go the other direction cos its easier. I think my bro chose the latter. It's like teachers in St Gabs will ask him why he cant be more like me and he would get so pissed he'll scold the teacher or walk out of class. I think I would have done the same in his shoes cos I dont really like being compared either. In this lifetime, I've only felt my heart literally break twice and the second time was cos of him. I just felt that I could have done more but didnt. Oh well...
Anyway...thanks to andrea and shane who persuaded me to go Tea CHapter yest...it was fun...and I had good company...n thanks to wayne for the hanging out after tt...although we didnt execute our initial agenda! ooOOhhHH!!
k think i will sign off here...haha guys pls pray for my toe! cos I think its all blue-black and the nail is gonna come out if it is to heal...sigh...how to play soccer again like tt...k gonna slack now...with me bloated stomach...ciao~