Sadness...

I used to be able to sleep away my thoughts or feelings but this time around it's not working...
I end up dreaming about what I had been thinking about the previous day/night and end up waking up feeling emotionally drained, and worse, really sad. I don't see a solution to this except to pray and ride it out. In an article on Psychology of Mind and Health Realisation I read, they said that such things are like clouds that darken your sky...the only thing to do is to ride it out cos you cannot consciously change it. My heart feels very heavy...
Despite this...I must thank God for the numerous ppl in my life...at times when I just wanted to be alone after not being to get ppl out n all tt...He purposedly brought others into my life...
1. Exco7 esp Fr Fred: You guys have been so much to me this past year...think I m having problems facing up to ending our term and I really think that I will just end up crying like mad on the 10th of Sept when the new exco is commissioned. Fr Fred, thanks for the talk in the car, it has helped me somewhat...haha and of cos thanks for the ride back which helped me recover in time to play soccer.
2. Soccer mates: Thanks for the game...felt I was so un-fit and all but somehow still managed to score three measly goals, none of which were fantastic, but all of which had some gd play from the rest of the team. I thank God for the game and the friends who were there.
3. FOC thanksgiving dinner: I don't know whether those ard me realised but I was quite sianz and sad coming into this dinner...but as usu I didnt want to show it. However, this great bunch of ppl helped me to forget my state of mind and just participate in this feast and fellowship. I really thank God for these people...some of whom I've really gotten to know while working with them. I thank God for all of u.
4. Cat Class, catechists: I really thought my mood would affect my class but in the end it didn't. Though my sharing group was a little noisy, God gave me the patience and calmness to talk to them and try to get them to share. I thank God also for all the wonderful catechists who I've gotten to know this hols...hope that we continue our service to God in this area.
5. Keenan, new CGLs: I felt that the meeting went well and though some of us were not feeling at our best, I think that our presense rubbed off on one another. Looking forward to working with these guys. :)
6. Lex: Thanks for listening to my whinings...u r a great sponge and a great fren...glad u managed to catch the fireworks with the guys and that u enjoyed yourself 'trekking'. You better get some rest b4 sch starts too ya? its been great knowing u...seeya more when sch starts...
7. Dad, mum, sis: For having dinner with me or tog after not being to go out to watch the fireworks...it was simple but gd...n as usu my mum had to stuff me with food. :)
8. Alan: Thanks for hanging out with me at Punggol End...I really appreaciated the company. It's like when no one else is free...you were there. heh. not tt u were a last choice...i didnt mean it tt way...so its a gd thing tt u r usu free k? ;) thanks for being a friend. was quite funny thinking abt the hate sms i sent u b4 i got to know ya...sorry abt tt!! :
And of cos to all the other people in my life who have been ard...sent by God...keeping in touch thru sms, email, icq (yes stupid msn as well)...thanks for being you...n of cos the Big Guy up there...

still I wish I would feel better soon...