Prayer

Dear Lord,
as I was walking from Bizad to SRC just now I prayed to you begging you for just one thing. I know it is rude to ask the giver to take back a gift but this gift means nothing to me now. In fact, this gift is causing me pain. Lord, all I wanted was for you to take my life. There would be no difference between carrying on and ending now.
Lord, today you gave me a gift. A gift of a friend who had also, like myself, decided to attend mass at the last minute and someone to accompany me and talk to me. I thank you for that. However, I still do not retract my previous prayer. It's still how I feel and if it is your will, let it be done. This I ask in your most Holy name. Amen.