Don't confuse my Low SE for Humility

This weekend I learnt what humility is. I think Alan is a good example of what this word epitomises. I never thought of myself as being proud but I guess it was pride that blinded me from that fact. This weekend was spent mostly doing 'sai-gang' in church...be it scrubbing the floors of the colabarium or clearing the tables of used plates, cups, tissue and other what-nots. Having to put up a smile when some pompous people treat you like their maid or when being arrowed to do this and that. It really reminds me of the shit in the army that I used to get as it kinda revived that bastard in me that I thought I saw die when I ORDed on the 3rd of August 2002. I can't do such work without whining or grumbling and it really irritates me a lot. The thing however, is that at the end of the day I still get the work done. But unlike Alan, I can't keep my mouth shut. I can't believe that I went thru the whole of army without realising that it was probably pride that made me unable to accept doing these lesser things.
Anyway, on another topic, though similar, some people may ironically think that I am actually humble because of certain achievements that I may have but I always tend to downplay, especially prior to the fact. I wish to correct these misguided souls...it is in fact a misattribution. This is not due to humility but to the lack of self-confidence in a low self-esteemed person. I do hope that in view of this, the word humble is taken out of the list of possible adjectives that has been used to describe the author (if it was in the 1st place). Thank you.