training to be soldiers...

going for reservist this coming Mon...for a grand total of 19 days. if i'm not wrong, the first two days should be 8-5pm cos have lectures. not really looking forward to it. first, i don't like army. second, i'll be losing the momentum i've built at work. last, i think i will miss my colleagues! i think that i've grown closer to them these past few months and in a sense, i will miss interacting with them and all. of cos, i will miss my bed at home, my dog and my family. *sigh*

today was a rather gloomy day for me, personally. i tried applying what i learnt - change your thinking & behaviour to change your feeling. it worked somewhat cos i arranged dinner and called someone to talk. i felt better but the bad feeling was still lingering, lurking, waiting to pounce at any opportunity.

i will survive. tt's something that all homosapiens have an innate instinct to strive towards. the quality of that existence though, might not be attained.