FOC ended yest with a fantastic finale at Sentosa. Must say that it has been a fantastic experience and I'm really glad I went, committed myself to it and made that the final event as a CSS member. Although I'll still be ard NUS for some time, I think as a student, FOC was the encore. I must admit that on the first day, I did get the sense that I was a little out of it. I felt I was old & that I couldnt keep up. I was wondering whether I had made a mistake. You know, I had been looking forward to this last FOC for some time now, and initially I was a little disappointed when I realised that kes, nan, val & many others in my batch wouldnt be attended full-time. Thank goodness for markli! You've been a great companion throughout dude! :) Anyway, for me right, the turning point was the second day. I think the ice between me & the freshies broke when they drew on my head. It's the 1st time since I had this 'hairdo' that anyone has done that...and the games that ensued, esp the Geisha game whereby piglet painted my head with powder & lipstick that I really felt in it. I think that many times we just have to give of ourselves totally if we wanna feel 'part of it' and tt's just what I did. There're so many memories man. Piglet was hilarious throughout la - be it from dodging waterbombs in a crouching defensive position to saying that she "used to be left-handed" when markli said left-handed people are smart. Then all the Udon (tt's my group name) cheers that we came up with, to the super energetic freshies that we got; man they really had "balls of enthusiaism" man! I really think that I can see & feel the generation gap bet me & the freshies. Must say that the freshies have lotsa initiative also man. I'm sure they've enjoyed themselves and I just feel so happy! I'm so glad to have known them - jared, johan, kelvin, sam, emmi & mallery - as well as others like Ben (aka hardgay), Jeremy (aka Geisha Chan), Nicole & Grace (the girls who broke their door lock on the 1st day) and Teresa (the only sane teresa thus far :p). Think I got to know some seniors better also - piglet, aaron, brenda, paul, benny, ivan, daniel, nat. Must say that I was particularly impressed with Aaron, in how he looked after the freshies, led as well as prayed. I'm sure he's gonna be big in CSS. And the seniors who have been with me in NUS & CSS - thank you all so much. The last day started off rather gloomy and it even started to rain; how it ended - with 2 wonderful, beautiful rainbows in the sky - was really an affirmation of God's presence and I could see it, feel it during Steph's prayer...it was so powerful. I would say it's one of the best prayers I've heard in CSS. And so ends a chapter in my life.
You know, last yr, Alan told me those words I still rem so clearly, when I felt that I was not needed at FOC - that we're all dispensible and that my time in CSS has ended. I was kinda hurt then. But not this yr...I see it as a transition. And as they say in chinese - chang jiang hou lang, tui qian lang. There'll always be new blood to take over the old, esp to be God's instruments. Thank you God and everyone who has been a part of my life in CSS. I love you all.
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*sobs sobs*..
dont be too sad la CG-mate..
we're fossils now... one day we will be rediscovered i'm sure.. when they flip thru some records of previous Excos and see our names appear on the minutes.. haha!
sigh.. i wrote something about moving on in my blog la, i know how u feel. i was rather sad to not be a part of this foc actually. =(
I din wanna leave tat early on tues but then was tired la and like i din belong anywhere also.
cheer up, i will come down nus to lunch wif u if time permits.:)
KPKP
Hi Nick! your entry has struck a chord within me and i feel quite touched. Thank YOU for being here. initially i had the same sentiments as u because i didnt think foc started off very well for me, and i feel old and yes, dispensible, so i had some apprehensions. Nonetheless, everything, with God's grace, turned out well eventually and im really blessed to have you--my senior and cgl-- in the same group! and i love ur sharing, the one w the powerpoint, it certainly brought back heaps of wonderful memories in css. as i move on to another phase in life, it may be hard to let go of a community which meant so much to me n which i felt rooted in, but i thank God that it ended on a high note, with a BANG! so now i can get ready and face my future!! Thank you once again! hope we'll always keep in touch n meet up for tea now n then. Zouk was fantastoc too!! i had a BLAST! :) im sure u did too, esp when it ended w ur fav Summer Rain!!!
Love,
Regina aka Piglet ^@^
hey guys...thanks so much for the comments...mean so much to me!
kes, think i get what u mean...felt that way when I didnt have a grp in previous FOCs...but so many of us were so glad to see u...thanks for coming down dude...I shd be seeing u soon also...gonna organise our Egypt grp outing...so can share pics n stuff...haha n lunch in NUS...sweet! Maybe I can go near ur place also...take turns la :D
Piglet, ya man...luckily got summer rain otherwise it wont be complete! woohoo! And thank YOU too piglet for being a part of my NUS life...for being my CGL too...n for the constant laughter that you bring to all our lives...
to all 3 of you guys...we'll keep in touch...God bless!
hey netto! and all the other seniors who might be seeing this =) fel and i were superly touched by all your presence at FOC itself.. be it those that came down for the whole FOC or those that just came down for the night. we really felt the love and are really touched from the bottom of our hearts. you guys prob wont know how much we are all gonna miss you all.. such a big role you all played in css itself. sometimes i wish time just stops and everything will be happy and good.. but i know its not possible. so im glad and thankful for this opportunity to know you all. though i never really interacted much with u all, but i know for sure ill miss you all and that things will just be different without all of you. take good care.. and im glad FOC was a good one for you nick. =)
lotsa hugs and love,
steph
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