The past week has been rather interesting. Not as good as the previous or the past few. On the work front, things have been slow but that's the least of my concerns. My mind has been on overdrive again and I think it's not good. My heart is restless which again spells disaster. Worst to cap off, today's Catechism class sucked to the core. Didn't enjoy, in fact hated it and I even thought of quiting. Last night seemed like the anomaly. Had dinner then supper with four others and it was good talking about religion, post-modernism, issues, masks, etc. Really enjoyed my company. I think it's during such sessions that i'm truely myself.
About cat class, I feel tired man. This class is really NOT worth putting in so much effort. Or am I trying too hard? Last year, when I put in effort, the reaction I got spurred me to double it up with more creativity. This year, it seems as if my energy is being leeched on, sucked dry. Man, I can't believe I actually feel this way. Think Kel was super irritated also. Only Carol seemed to be unaffected. Oh well, life goes on. I've decided not to quit (tt's not the way to go) but I will make use of the coming 3 week 'break' from class to reflect and reconsider my role in this ministry.
As much as I hate to admit it, I have a feeling that my reaction in class today might have had been influenced by my emotional state of mind before class. It's never good when you bring baggage in, but then it can't be helped. I prayed, more than I have in weeks, but to no avail. I'll have to carry this for now. I pray for support.
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hey netto! do hang in there! the road is never easy, we must carry the crosses that God give us... and it is through these trials that make us stronger. Lift up everything to the Lord, your fatigue, your doubts, your insecurities, for the Lord will provide (not in ways u expect)Don't give up, don't lose hope alright! you're doing great already! The kids cant do without you, and serving God in this ministry, I'm sure is one of the most noble things ever, because teaching is never easy, but the rewards reaped would be twofold (: *hugs* thanks for that night. we should have more of it. i enjoy such heart-to-heart-and-without-pretense-talks too! :)
heyhey Ade,
thanks a lot for your post ya....means a lot to me. I hope you don't get too stressed out either ya. One step at a time...n feel free to ask me n jon for help. God bless u gal...n here's to more of such nights :D
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